Out to dinner with a black friend of mine in his forties, we stray off the usual topics of politics, education and religion, and I ask him about his daughter.'Where does your daughter go to school again?'
'Sunnyside Up'
'Oh. So what's it like?'
I'm expecting him to give me some stats, percentages of pass rates at GCSE etc., but instead my friend looks to the floor. He's embarrassed.
'Well, well, you know... well, it's private.'
'Oh.' I pause. 'Yes, I mean, yes, of course.' I smile, remembering that my friend used to be a teacher. He knows the drill. Of course his child is at a private school. He continues, looking up from the floor.
'The thing is, well, it is basically my local school.' He smiles nervously. 'There aren't any closer schools really. I mean, this school is...'
I hold my hand up.' Whoah... what's up? Why so defensive? You don't have to defend yourself to ME... I get it, remember?'
My friend laughs. 'Yeah, yeah, yeah, of course you do.' He then goes on to explain some of his daughter's achievements this year and how proud he is of her.
I start to wonder more about the school. 'So what's the percentage of black kids at the school?'
My friend's eyes open wide. 'Well, there is a huge number of Asian children at the school!'
I wince. 'What the hell is wrong with you? Why are you so defensive?? I didn't ask how many Asian kids there are. I asked how many black kids there are.'
I'm guessing there can't be many. What's weird is his reaction: just like his reaction to sending her to a private school. He feels bad. And he feels so bad that his instinctive reaction is to defend his decision to send his daughter there, or to tell me that there are lots of Asian children at the school. I never criticised him. Yet, he is defensive.
Is this because other people have criticised him in the past? Or is this because it is not socially acceptable to send one's child to a private school? Anywhere in the developing world, people would never be ashamed to admit their child was at a private school. They would be proud. They would be admired. In some countries, putting one's child first isn't frowned upon.
So why do we frown on it here?


